It started from a “hahaha”, this day a year ago. Who would have thought I’d be committed little shit now?
I remembered during the summer break of my second year in college, while I was waiting for my grades in Math101, I prayed hard and promised God that I will strive harder in my studies if He let me pass this one (It was hopeless that time since all my quizzes got failing grades. Like 5/60 failing). I was overjoyed to have found that I got a 3.0 when I checked the grade query.
Having not kept my promise to the Lord to strive harder, I can’t help but let the tears fall from my eyes as I stared at the two 5.0’s in my report of grades the following semester. I knew I deserved it.
Now, again I asked God to give me this; to pass the ASTHRDP. And if I do, I will do everything to use this opportunity to better myself and to use this gift for the benefit of everyone around me.
I guess God and I have a deal.
You are my sweetest downfall. I loved you first. I loved you first.
I’m moving on cause I just want to feel for once that I belong. And that’s what’s going on.
I’m so random. One moment I’m like “I love you, please don’t leave me”. Then next moment I’m “Get out, leave me alone”. Wow.
I gave up when I realized that I don’t make you any more than I break you. Instead of blooming, you wilt. And that’s not right. You are beautiful and wonderful. And if I’m not the man who can make you feel, treat you like a princess, then I shouldn’t be the one who gets to keep you. That’s why I let you go.
Hey! Get out of my head.
I need to think things through.
Just stay here in my heart.
Keep it beating for you.